I know this is probably the last thing i should be doing right now, but for some reason is the only thing i can think to do to try and ease the way i feel. Got drunk on friday night (i know you would have been frowning down on me) but the only thing that crossed my mind as i laid in bed is how much i still miss you and cant handle you not being here. It will be two years soon and still the pain wont go away. I know i have to stay strong for the kids but not a day goes by when i dont want to break down and cry until i cant cry anymore. I ent as strong as they all think i am dad and without you here it feels like my world has crumbled around me. Not a day goes by when i dont wish you was with me and sometimes i would get there if it werent for the fact that i would hurt too many people by leaving although then maybe everyone would understand how i was feeling. I cant do this anymore dad but you ent here to listen and writing this is probably pointless
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say
I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe a tear away from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said "Daddy when you coming home?"
He said the first thing that came to
his mind
I'm already there take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And i know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss ya darling
Don't worry about the kids
they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know I'll be in
your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light
and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there till the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there till the end
Can you feel the love we share
Oh I'm already there
I'm already there
Between the ages of ages of 12 and 16 I must have spent more time with you than with my own dad. All those times you took Kelly and me swimming or drove us to the cinema. I always enjoyed our chats on the phone all the times Kelly wasn't there, again! Although you probably never knew it, those chats meant alot to me.
You are one of two people who I have lost recently, both of you had a big impact on my life and I'll remember you always.
I will miss you, all my love, Kirsty x
I thought of you
I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new,
I thought about you yesterday, and the day before that too.
I think of you in silence, I often say your name,
But all I have is memories and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake, with which i'll never part,
God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been, a million times I cried,
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place no one could fill.
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didnt go alone,
For part of me went with you, the day god took you home
I know i only wrote to you the other day dad, but this is the only way i can express how i am feeling. I helped D wrap her dad's present just now and it almost broke my heart cos i should be wrapping one up for you. Even found myself looking for presents for you without even realising i was doing it. Wish you were here and am having real difficulty dealing with the fact that youre not. We are having christmas at mine this year at the weekend. Mum, Nanny, Martyn, Zara and Grandad and Brenda are coming round but it wont be the same cos you wont be there. Martyn and I are coming to see you just before christmas. We will put some flowers in the chapel for you so please go and have a look. Missing you more with every day that you are gone and will never stop loving you. Will write soon
Love your daughter
xx xx xx
well chris i have so many wonderfull memories of you but the two that always come to mind are the look of absolute joy when you came home on your first motorbike and agian on the day you married Ann who stood by you through everything your life was never easy from the age of 7 but you ended up with a wonderfull wife 2 wonderfull children and 2 lovely grandchildren although your life was cut short it was a great one where you accomplished many things,the only consolation i have is that you are now in mums care, she will look after you i will always miss and love you dear brother
god bless, your little sister sandra
Well dad, here we are nearly at christmas and this one will be a toughie as it will be the first one without you. Kalisa still talks about you as your picture is hanging on the wall and it breaks my heart when she says she wants to see you, but what can you tell a 3 yr old. Me and D ended up telling her that you were in the stars for now and that seems to have satisfied her curiosity - although she says you are *naughtny* for being up there and i have to say i agree with her. Nat is growing up fast and between us all we will ensure she knows her grandad. Miss you more with every day that goes by and if you are watching over me, please never stop. All my love today tomorrow and always xx
*naughty in Kalisa speak x
